Long Weekend! Airshow and Wedding

Well just a quick update, was at a friends wedding on Saturday, was good to see people we hadn't seen for ages. My only bugbear was that due to the wife's op she's still banned from driving, which meant that i was completely unable to drink as i was forced to do the "driving thing". Ordinarily I'd have stayed locally and it wouldn't have been an issue, but with the baby in tow, and a family outing on Sunday i figured the best bet was just to get some kip in our own bed before the next day.
Bamburgh castle was fabulous, really nice and well suited to the civil ceremonies, the "Scottish invasion" was successful and kilts were worn by all the menfolk involved in the wedding (making me glad I wasn't!)
Congratulations to the pair, i really can't believe I've been married two years already, and there's a sprog in the cot. God that's flown over.
I'm too shattered to blog about what we did on Sunday with the family, but I'll say this. Sunderland International Air Show, 5 Adults, 3 Children (0-3) a picnic and a rising tide!
Here's one of the video's i took, it's a small clip from an F16 flypast that was jaw dropping.

Tired!

Oh so very tired... I really can't explain it either. Elliot is sleeping well (not that she wakes me up crying at night anyway) I'm getting plenty of sleep, i've been in bed far earlier than i used to be and i'm not working long hours. So i really can't get to grips with why i feel so drained.
I'm normally a very yawny person anyway, but things have been getting daft this last week or so.
I took a few minutes break this morning to get away from the computer screen but within a few seconds i was feeling like i was drifting away and almost asleep. I'm lucky i didn't fall off my chair. Thankfully no-one really noticed at all.
In between my spurts of wakefulness and tiredness i've watched another episode of dexter (hilarious monologging - if that's actually a word.. god i love Disney - and quirky humour.) And the final Episode of Heroes Season 1 was shown on Monday evening (Sci-Fi ftw!) and WOW! what an awesome way to end a series... quite literally with a bang.
Some friends have been trying to tell me how awesome Lost has been but frankly since Sky One got hold of it and Virgin stopped carrying Sky One, i've not really felt it's loss (no pun intended). I might try to get my hands on the DVD's but really don't know if i'll bother.



Just for those who have no idea what the hell Heroes is.. i reccomend you keep your eye on BBC2, i believe they are starting their First Season run this month (the 22nd is ringing bells with me)

Dexter

Well i've just been watching the pilot of a series called "Dexter" on FX, it's an interesting new series that was shown last year in the states, but has only just begun it's run in the UK.
It's a slightly offbeat series, personally i'd call it a dark comedy. If you've not heard anything about it at all try this the clip above is the american trailer for it.
It's all about a forensic scientist that has a slight problem... he's a serial killer, but not just any serial killer, he stalks killers himself and kills them before the police find them. I've only seen the one episode so far, and i dont want to spoil things by giving the plot away. All i will say is that the monologues and quirky script had me in stitches, very reminiscent of American Psycho.
I really do suggest you take a look if you get chance! Fab!

Do i feel any different?

This is one of those questions that EVERYONE seems to throw at me since Elliot's arrival. My initial response was pretty short and succinct. But I've had a few days to think about exactly what's happened so far and whether i really do feel any different now I'm a father.
Yesterday i changed my answer slightly, i told Dom (and i quote) "I've had nine months to get used to the idea of being a father, if i wasn't ready now i doubt i ever would be."
and I've spent the evening thinking upon that. I would guess the truthful answer to the question is quite simple, it's a one word response beginning with Y and ending with S, but that really doesn't quite get to the heart of the question. It doesn't even give people an answer that they can dissect or consider.
However It's deeper that that, much deeper, you see the answer I've been giving is No. And even now five days in i am still sticking to my guns and saying No, i feel no different at all. The fact is that i have felt the way i do today about Elliot since the day i found out she'd been conceived. I really can't be any more truthful than that. To expand on what i said to Dom, i think it's just a case of saying. No, I do not feel any different than i did before she was born. But i will freely admit that whilst i do not feel different, i do think differently.
I think more about what can i do that will make her or Billie more comfortable, i ponder upon what more i can do to help them both, i wonder what she will look like in 1 week, 3 months, 12 months, 4 years, her 18'th birthday.
I look into her eyes and i know that i am going to be the most weak willed father there is, no matter what she wants, she can have it.
But no, i do not feel differently, i felt this way since the second i was told we were having a baby.

Welcome to the new world order

Baby Elliot!

http://babyaven.blogspot.com/2007/06/elliots-arrival.html

I'll leave it quite simply at that for the time being, there's a story to tell, but right now isn't the time for it i'm sure.

To everyone that's been texting me over the last few days/weeks, the wait is finally over!

Thank you everyone!